March 2015 moving Sean the horse

It is now nearly the end of March.  I used to write to all my friends/family every month.  I don’t know whether this is because I see my friends more often these days or because I am generally very busy.

 

 

I had a great trip with Dan to Tunisia for my birthday week.  I have already reflected on it in my blog, https://hazeldurbridge.com/a-trip-to-tunisia/ so I won’t repeat that here.  Suffice to say there were many changes since I last visited some 20 years ago and it was a lot less extreme than the attack on the Bardo Museum in Tunis last week might suggest and yes, I was there the week before.  It hosts some of the best preserved mosaics in the world.

 

Quick update on the blog.  I need to get my head around some technical stuff as it keeps crashing and at the moment only my web designer can implement what just host advises.  While it is not viral by any means, in the last month I have gone from being read by mainly Brits and Russians to all over the world, most recently South America.  At the moment the Chinese and Americans log on the most.  I just find it exciting.  It makes me look harder at the world as I have to keep coming up with material.  Very few comments still and the fund raising is worse than useless!

 

I gave up red wine for Lent – well 31 days as I did drink on holiday.  I got sick drinking on an empty stomach and it somehow gave me the kick I needed to stop what has been a half a bottle a day habit for the last 10+ years.  I found it much easier than giving up smoking.  I haven’t felt remotely better, but then when I was away and drinking I realised my ‘struggle’ dreams were back – sort of nightmares, full of anxiety and failure and I realised without alcohol my sleep is dreamless.  Of course I have also lost a bit more weight as wine is hugely calorific.  I did not discuss my drinking with the therapist, but I am sure she would have said I was using it as a prop.

 

Another significant move this month is that I have made the decision to move Sean from the yard where I have kept him for over 20 years to another farm in the village.  I am anxious about how Sean/I will cope in a new set up, but the bullying and bitchiness I have experienced there has been remorseless and while I do take some responsibility for not working very hard to integrate myself, I don’t gossip and say cruel things about others.  They are going to have to find a new scapegoat.  I also need to get over the fear that change will be bad.

 

Work is fine.  I went on some training recently where we had to look at pictures of little men in a tree to decide where we were.  I realised I was the one swinging happily on one of the lower branches.  Long may it remain.

 

Dan wants to go Marlin fishing so we are looking at the possibility of using my time share points and going to Gran Canaria in May.  This is exciting as I haven’t been there.  Our relationship develops.  He is good at making pies.  I can thrash him at scrabble.

 

J2 got offered a job at his school as an NQT (Newly Qualified Teacher) and his girlfriend, Ceri, has got a job as a Science teacher at a local school too.  They are looking to move in together in August.

 

I am increasingly enjoying going to church.  What I hear and reflect on there just keeps me centred and more content.