Back with the therapist April 2016

 

The therapist never tells you to do anything, but I sit there and ruminate myself in to all sorts of decisions which I then carry out and report back on at the next session. I am ostensibly in a period of reflection or ‘sink’. This means I am trying not to active myself out of sad moments.  In reality I am still uber active.  I go to the gym – a lot.  I am now seeing in a platonic capacity two of my previous boyfriends.  I have communicated my unfinished business by telling them exactly what I think of them.  They have responded in like mode, but somehow out of that seems to be a little phoenix arising from the ashes which is about just being alongside people with zero agenda.  The therapist scoffs at this.  She thinks I am being a therapist and not even getting paid for it.  ‘What do you get out of this Hazel?’ she says.  I like their company?  Not for life, but in short doses.  If I am not going to be out there hunting for the one, this engages me in the interim.  I am hoping it will not all end in tears.

I am trying to think if I have much to tell you since I saw you. J1 has definitely resigned from the military as of late August 2016, but will actually get paid until March 2017 (I don’t know how that works!).  He plans to go travelling with his girlfriend while he sorts out a new career.  A* is now on her second vintage placement in the South of New Zealand, but last I heard was in melt down as they were having to work nights.  She has started her paper work to go back in to Australia as T’s partner.  J2 is dating an Indian girl whom I haven’t met yet.  Bear and Adele’s baby is due in June – the uber expensive buggy is in my spare room!

Work is fine. I am actually going on a pop up business course as part of my community routine, but using my blog as a participant.  I am hoping to get some tips to begin to make a little bit of money from it!

The gym is good. The lodgers are fine.  My cooking is improving.  I did this amazing nut roast last week-end for a vegetarian friend.

Suggest some dates in June to meet up.