anxiety about not being good enough

Your inner voice says, ‘I am not good enough’. My inner voice says, ‘Hazel, you’re so brave!’

Where does that come from? My mother? I really don’t know, but it is a blessing.

It’s not that sometimes I don’t look at myself or think about myself, ‘Hazel, that is absolute s***!’, but I don’t beat myself up about it remorselessly. Another of my favourite inner voice sayings is, ‘all you have to do Hazel is put one foot in front of the other’. I say that a lot to myself when I am tired.

Sometimes my inner voice even gets a little arrogant and acts in those brazen ways I couldn’t really see through in real life, but I see that as a ‘feeding my nerdy self’ a bit. I could do with a bit of pizazz and backbone sometimes.

I googled ‘anxiety’ and ‘I am not good enough’. There is shedloads written about these topics.
Apparently ‘generalized anxiety disorder’ affects 5% of the UK population and is more common in people (and women) between the ages of 35-59.
Self-help courses are good as is regular exercise, breathing stuff like yoga and cutting down on alcohol and smoking.
‘Anxiety disorders illicit an intense fear or anxiety out of proportion to the situation in hand’.

I looked at anxietynomore.co.uk which I found a bit verbose.
www.yourcourageouslife.com/feeling-not-good-enough/
which I liked a little better and
www.tinybuddha.com/blog/7-things-to-remember-when-you-think-youre-not-good-enough/

I like this site a lot.

Finally

I Have Wasted Years Thinking I’m Not Good Enough. And I am so fucking done with that.